Women are bad for my mental health


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So there was this girl who bullied me in high school. That unfortunately was not the last time I heard from her. I have developed schizophrenia and I hear voices in my head. The voices that I hear in my head are "he's such a loser", "I hope he kills himself","he has no life" and "he doesn't have a girlfriend". Whenever I go to a public place (like a shopping mall) and it's a women's voice I hear these negative words that get morphed into these words by my brain. I am stopping the blue pill now.

As a volcel, should I go black pill or red pill?