lordoftheincels said:One time a girl invited me to a date then winked at me. The date was at like a 9-5 group gathering that lasted all day. I told her I'd think about it and probably would go, but wasn't sure (PUA tactics say never act too needy.)
I didn't go there as soon as it started, but showed up around lunch time. She wasn't there. I asked around and noone remembered seeing her there, but I could tell they could care less.
I started to feel the hurt building in me. But then another girl showed up and took an interest in me. I thought the Universe was being good to me, showing me I'd get a girl who's even better. So I asked her out and then she told me she was actually about to get married in a few days. I started to rage. I could not hide my resentment and frustration with the cruel universe anymore. Started screaming at the top of my lungs, said to her I was done with society and gonna go around spreading negative energy and misery to everyone I see.
To this day that day still haunts me. Sometimes I wonder had I showed up earlier, before lunch, if she would have showed up. Or what would have happened had I ignored PUA and simply told her the truth: That I was desperate for love. Maybe then it would have went a different way. I can't even remember the girls name which is the worst. Can't even find her on facebook. Every fibre in my gut feels pain and agony, like she could have been the one for me and I'll never find her again. I cope by remembering that she was slightly obese which helps me cope.
The strange part is that noone else remembers her name either or even seeing her. Sometimes I wonder if she was a demon or angel. I'm a little crazy but not crazy enough to hallucinate tulpas like that. It's like a Shamalyan movie or something.
Just quit thinking there is reason behind things they do. They are not the same as men, they are not equal to men.MentalCel100 said:Why do girls wink?