I arrived at her house sunday 8am and was greeted at the door by her mother who seems nice. Her father wasn't home, so I was escorted to her room and the moment I stepped a foot into that room, I was hit by a wave of estrogen in the air, I could smell how polar she was from me, the total opposite of my male identity. Then I gazed at her, she looked like she came from a fairy tale, I turned my sight to the ground feeling absolutely unfit to be in her presence. Then she greeted me, I couldn't put my words together, it was all over the place, my IQ had dropped to retarded levels. She then asked if I was ok? I replied with a stutter. Then her mother said I should have a seat and relax. At this point, my legs were shaking, I became clumsy, then she reached out her hand to shake me and I almost fell to my knees. Her hands were so soft and tiny unlike mine which was rough and ugly. Then she said whenever am rdy, and I went in my bag and grabbed my piano book. I sat next to her and couldn't control my breathing. She told me to direct her hands on the keyboard and as I did, my hands became wet from sweating too much. She noticed and didn't bother saying anything. i told her where the low and high notes where, and as time went by, i became relaxed. I enjoyed the lesson with her and to my surprise, she was brilliant unlike the foid i was teaching blood flow to in queens college. Then i told her she looked glorious. She laughed and said "really? i never knew that, thank you." After 3 hours of piano lesson, she talked to me about her life and she asked me to describe how the world is like form my perspective. I was thinking of letting her in on the blackpill, but i don't want to get in trouble for feeding her the truth of this cruel world. I felt like if she was able to see such creature as me, she would see me unfit to talk to her, let alone come to her house. Her blindness was a blessing she couldn't see. I gave her some snacks and she served me some Scottish food. The lesson ended after she played a music by Lana Del Rey, she enveloped my right hand with both of her hands and said "Thank you, name" I felt absolutely blessed. I thought, how could such a beauty touch the hands of a lurking creature like me, probably because she's blind. Then her chad cousin walked in the room and said "yo what's gud bro" i was like "huh, hey" then she screamed his name like she was in love with him or something, and he went and hugged her and i saw her feeling his muscles and at this point i knew i didn't stand a chance. All my thoughts of hope had gone through the window, i felt hopeless and desperate, there's no way i can win against a giga chad like that, he had more money than me, high status, gymmaxed, car maxxed, chiseled face, this guy has it all. I felt absolutely mogged in every way possible and she had her arms around him telling me i can come back this sunday weekend and we can move on to the next lesson. I legit cried on my way home and started thinking, When will it ever be my turn to get a girl friend? Seriously, When?