My final blackpill thread (warning, very long)

Kolibri

Destroyer of Soy
After this, I plan to not post much longer. No, I didn't ascend or anything, quite the opposite. I don't fit in anywhere, and that includes here. So I'm gonna make an effort to completely isolate myself from everywhere after this. I'm gonna ask to get banned within the next couple days. But first....

There was a thread asking "what did we do to improve ourselves?" The point of this post is to lay out a good chunk of my positive attributes with examples, so maybe I can convert a few bluepillers to my side before I go. I'm essentially somewhat doxxing myself by posting this thread, but that's ok. It's worth it.

It really IS all about your face. That's what inceldom is caused by. Not mental issues, not autism, not height (up to a point), not your raсe, usually, but your face.

I have a good amount of positive personality attributes. I'm gonna outline those first.

1. I'm kind. I've stopped to help people push their cars to gas stations before when they ran out of gas. I've volunteered at soup kitchens. I've done work for free for certain people that I should have charged for. I've helped many people, especially women, feel better about themselves, because I know what it's like to not feel good about yourself.

2. I'm loyal. I don't flip flop sides UNLESS the other person flip flopped first. Back in my more bluepilled days I was super loyal to women that I liked even though I never dated any of them! If a fight broke out involving one of my "friends" I'd jump right in and fight alongside them. I'm also not a snitch. I don't sell people out, and I really don't want them to do it to me.

3. I'm interesting. I have a lot of stories about things I've done or been through. Things that I never mentioned on here before because I'd get doxxed easily. I'll mention one, and only one, here. I got to moderate a forum for a favorite video game company of mine. Then there's other stories, like how I was featured on the news twice during elementary school, or the first out of body experience I had.

4. I mog most chads in confidence. Or at least I used to. I'd walk right up to whatever woman I found attractive and would try to talk to her. It almost never ended well, but I did it anyway. Once I hit 30 though I stopped really doing it. I'm also not one to back down from a challenge. Even if I think I lose, I'll try anyway. This confidence never helped me in any way though. Even my own co-workers of all people think I'm confident, and most of them can't STAND me!!!

5. I'm intelligent. I think several steps ahead usually, and have a high degree of intuition (though sometimes I try to ignore it), common sense, book smarts, AND street smarts. By first grade I was reading at seventh grade level, and I got so many credits in middle school that my ninth grade year was me just sitting in study hall for five hours, and my tenth grade year, I only had to go to school for 2 hours and 45 minutes a day, which was about three periods, plus lunch. School still sucked though. I've also applied my street smarts to help me when I lived in the hood. If not for that, I probably wouldn't have survived.

6. I'm resilient. I've been through ѕhit that would make normies hang themselves. The few family members I cared about died when I was little. I've been homeless three times, lived with a physically and mentally abusive mother and father, got bullied at school by teachers and students alike, gotten accused of some horrible ѕhit, such as theft and sexual harassment, ended up working with a bunch of shitty people I despise for nine fuсking years, get called ugly every day and treated like I'm a fuсking leper by nearly everyone around me, had numerous instances of terrible luck otherwise, but I'm still here. I'm still alive. Buttfucked, but alive.

Now, other credentials I have, such as talents and skills.

I have all the basic life skills that everyone should have. I can cook, clean, do laundry, do most basic car repairs (most guys I know can't do ANY of this ѕhit). Despite this, women still want useless, paperweight trophy Chad. If any of you other cels can't do some of this stuff, don't feel bad, because I can understand. LDAR is a strong thing. I've been doing that for the past month just about. I'm more pointing at the chads and soys who can't do this ѕhit.

I'm a jack of all trades, and master of some.

I can play certain sports at least decently, like basketball, soccer, and baseball. A really strange one that I have a natural talent for is badminton, though I don't like to play it because it reminds me of the bourgeois.

I was a competent graphic designer, but got bored of doing it, and stopped doing it after being ripped off for a project. Photoshop, pencil, marker, you name it, I can design some cool ѕhit with whatever you ask me to.

I can put together furniture like nobody's business. I don't know any other guys my age that can even do this. Most struggle to even hammer a nail. My specialty is tables and chairs. But my favorite thing to put together are those swinging benches with the awning over them.

I can come up with clever solutions to certain situations. A good example was when my mom needed an antenna right away for her tv because her old one broke. Nobody around had one. I was able to use my unconventional wisdom to make a makeshift one out of bent paper clips for her. It worked too.

While I haven't mastered any other languages other than English, I still know a fair bit of Japanese, Spanish, and some German. Though I never really use any of it. I'm lying somewhat, I use Japanese for my game collection.


I'm only 31 and have no debt and a good credit score. This probably doesn't sound like a big deal, but I was able to pay my debt off after ten years, and even got a refund when I found out I overpaid. Most people my age have at least 50k in debt or so left by this age. Me, I have none. And I make a decent amount of money compared to most guys in my area. Practically everything I have, I OWN. I don't rent anything except the house I'm living in.

Other miscellaneous things about me. I love to learn new subjects and new things, though that's diminished a lot over the past two years or so. The last thing I was learning was how to do more fancy car repairs.

I also love to travel. It's very hard for me to want to stay home most of the time. I break that stereotype of incels sitting in their moms' basements all day.

Now for what I've tried dating wise.

Talking to women in real life. It almost never ended well, and it especially didn't when I cold and warm approached 1,300 or so women in the span of 15 months during college. Three or four women a day, and not a single one said yes. Other guys around me tried this and ended up at least getting dates. I didn't. I did make a few girl "friends" in my life, but they usually abandoned me for someone who would treat them badly.

Talking to women online. This led to at least 500 rejections or ghostings. This was over a span of about nine years on OkCupid and PoF. Tinder I used on and off for a couple years, with a couple validation matches and one woman who did match me but kept talking in circles.

Tried the "friends first" approach, never worked.

Tried meeting women through people I knew, never worked.

Tried joining clubs relevant to my interests, such as gaming and anime. Zilch.

Conventions. Zippo.

Speed dating. Nada.

Alternative dating sites like Hinge, Bumble, and KinkD. Goose egg.

I should note I'm not a fan of modern beauty standards. So before any bluepillers accuse me of going for stacies and that's why my results are lacking, hell no. I like mid tier Becky or slightly below. They don't like me though.

So with all my credentials, and the fact that I'm a fuсking Swiss army knife of a man, why do you think I can't find a woman to save my life?

I mean obviously it's not lack of personality, confidence, or ambition. It's not lack of skills, or lack of leaving the house. It's not lack of interesting things. The usual response from a woman when she thinks I'm interested in her is, eww, he's UGLY! They look right past all my awesome attributes, and focus on my face, without missing a goddamn beat.


This happens no matter WHAT I do to improve myself, or what I do to be more interesting. It's the same damn result every time. What do you bluepillers have to say about this?

TL;DR, I have a shitton of credentials that should make me at least boyfriend material, but women hate me because of my face. The blackpill is real. Do not be fooled by this self improvement ѕhit.
 

Arthur

That's Life
Absolute MASTERMIND of a thread! You've been good to me since the day i joined here, and i hope I've been the same to you. You're as trucel as anyone I've ever met. An honest fellow with high intelligence and a good soul. If this wasn't a clown world, you'd be wealthy PLUS you'd have a loyal wife. Unfortunately we're stuck in clown world, where that's not the case.

Thank you for all you've done for the forum, you're a hell of a good mod too.
 

Fiesta Payasos

Doomed | Honkpill
This thread is brutal. Unfair to a point i can't even understand. Your story makes mine, and many other incels a joke in comparison. You're a hero in my opinion, a hero because you're holding on with something i still cant dig it honestly. I wish you the best of lucks.

Take my virtual hug, I wish I could say something better.
 

Kalex0

Femoid
I've yet to meet any guy the way you've described yourself to be. Even if it's been explained on here before I don't think I'll ever fully comprehend how a face can be the 'end all be all' when trying to find a significant other..
You'd think by now people would have their priorities straight but that'd be wishful thinking. Sorry you lost the genetic lottery, you definitely don't deserve any of the crap you’ve been through.
 

Kolibri

Destroyer of Soy
Absolute MASTERMIND of a thread! You've been good to me since the day i joined here, and i hope I've been the same to you. You're as trucel as anyone I've ever met. An honest fellow with high intelligence and a good soul. If this wasn't a clown world, you'd be wealthy PLUS you'd have a loyal wife. Unfortunately we're stuck in clown world, where that's not the case.

Thank you for all you've done for the forum, you're a hell of a good mod too.
Fucked up ain't it? This thread is an offshoot of one that our dearly banned love did a long while back, that recently got bumped.

I had planned this thread months and months ago, and had a draft written that was longer, but lost the draft. I had to redo it.

You're a good man, Joker. If I had to pick precisely one incel to ascend, it'd be you. I'm dangerously close to swallowing the whole blackpill. I'm probably...85% blackpilled now.
 

Kolibri

Destroyer of Soy
This thread is brutal. Unfair to a point i can't even understand. Your story makes mine, and many other incels a joke in comparison. You're a hero in my opinion, a hero because you're holding on with something i still cant dig it honestly. I wish you the best of lucks.

Take my virtual hug, I wish I could say something better.
I mean, to be fair, a lot of chads and normies do FAR less than any of us, but still have great lives somehow. The point of my thread wasn't to show off, it was to show that my self improvement and positive attributes led nowhere. As of now I'm going on 32 years old, and have no friends other than some online ones, and no family. And no other way to go until I get surgery.
 

Kolibri

Destroyer of Soy
I've yet to meet any guy the way you've described yourself to be. Even if it's been explained on here before I don't think I'll ever fully comprehend how a face can be the 'end all be all' when trying to find a significant other..
You'd think by now people would have their priorities straight but that'd be wishful thinking. Sorry you lost the genetic lottery, you definitely don't deserve any of the crap you’ve been through.
Well, that's my life. I mog a lot of guys I know, but am still stuck in Lonelyland. It's fucked up to realize that if I had NONE of these attributes, and was handsome instead, my life would be 1000 times better.

I didn't even go into a few other self improvement things I did, like doing weightlifting for two years and ѕhit like that.
 

Kalex0

Femoid
Kalex0 said:
I've yet to meet any guy the way you've described yourself to be. Even if it's been explained on here before I don't think I'll ever fully comprehend how a face can be the 'end all be all' when trying to find a significant other..
You'd think by now people would have their priorities straight but that'd be wishful thinking. Sorry you lost the genetic lottery, you definitely don't deserve any of the crap you’ve been through.
Well, that's my life. I mog a lot of guys I know, but am still stuck in Lonelyland. It's fucked up to realize that if I had NONE of these attributes, and was handsome instead, my life would be 1000 times better.

I didn't even go into a few other self improvement things I did, like doing weightlifting for two years and ѕhit like that.
I have no idea what you look like so I’m picturing the worst possible case and even then it still feels wrong, like you should’ve gotten a lucky break at some point. Maybe that’s the repressed bluepill in me, who knows.
 

RelapseCel

Incels.Net Master
This got me feeling sad man. Hope stuff works out. If it dont you should embark on a life of vigilante justice. If you get 100% blackpilled what does that mean btw? ER or rope or just to fully give up all hope?
 

Kolibri

Destroyer of Soy
This got me feeling sad man. Hope stuff works out. If it dont you should embark on a life of vigilante justice. If you get 100% blackpilled what does that mean btw? ER or rope or just to fully give up all hope?
Just give up all hope.

As you know, it's over for hopecels.

Vigilante justice sounds fun; there are so many people around me who need to be in prison but the goddamn cops won't do their jobs.
 
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