I'm not sure hope is still alive. I have been practicing chastity as best i can. NoFap lifestyle but i am not religious. My mood is to erase myself from it all. It hopefully gives me extra energy. In my dreams i take this sublimed hurt & cast magic, i wish there could be shaolin like cast of incels to avenge us in all ways except by physical violence of course. If we concentrate our intelligence we can wreak havoc upond the world.