I cheated on my “gay Pοrn” diet and worry of giving into temptation is getting worse.

yakstan

Incels.Net Junior
I apologize for starting a new thread this quick after starting my first one, but it was really just a copy and paste of a draft I had in my Notes app for a few weeks now and I realized that if I want adequate responses I should rather talk about the now instead of the then.

If you haven’t read my last thread- which if you would like to, check it out on my profile- but long story short, the way I’m trying not to give into the temptation of just.. taking what I want forcefully from women, I would rather just look at gay Pοrn rather than straight Pοrn to not even give me the chances of getting my hopes up.

But anyway,

Over the past week or two- Corona has taken over my life and my soul- figuratively, of course.

It has led me to giving into the dreaded straight pornography which I had been preaching to myself to even think about looking at.

Well, not straight Pοrn itself, more just.. pictures of Madison Beer and Megan Fox.

No matter how horny and desperate I get, I will never give into Pornhub’s sex trafficking and rаpe conspiracies. Never.

I realized the consequences of jacking it to pictures of these women- which are my type, (not saying that I wouldn’t not take any woman that offers herself to me, but, girls who look remotely similar to them would be preferred) that I had only made my temptations stronger, and overall- worse.

I went to the store around a week ago to pick up some milk, cheese, and peanut butter. There, I saw this young girl, not young, I’m not a pedophile, but probably around 15-16. She looked almost exactly like my type, long brunette hair that just goes a little but past her chest, teal eyes and tan skin. I glanced at her multiple times- and she probably noticed after a while unless she isn’t aware of her surroundings.

I’m ashamed to say it- but I get the temptations again and they came bad.

I fuсking got them and I hate myself for thinking this way, having these almost rаpe-like fantasies in my head that make me want to off myself everytime they pop up.

I’ve been able to control it for months now with the whole gay-Pοrn diet, but I relapse on getting off to women once and THIS is how my mind treats me.

I literally fuсking hate myself.

I don’t know why I “relapsed,” but I did, and maybe it’s because I thought that if I jack to girls who are actually real, I know their name, their life, their persona, that I’ll know I’ll never have a chance with her and she’ll know I’ll never exist, maybe it’s fine because lookalikes of those girls rarely exist in real life.

But apparently I was wrong.

Thanks a lot, God.

Since that day, (and I know this is a little TMI, but,) I’ve been jacking it everyday- multiple times, way more than usual- and using the same concept of “I’ll never get them,” but with men- specifically that actor who played that cuck Stanley Barber from that Netflix show I Am Not Okay With This and the White Boy of The Month that played that fаg from Call Me By Your Name. They’ve been good escapism- it’s almost like a cleanse of women despite not having any sexual attraction to men whatsoever.

But part of me, in the very back of my mind, is always chanting- “yeah, those boys- but what if they were GIRLS? Imagine how hot they would be if they were the opposite sex?” And that’s... that’s what brings me to climax.

And yet, just because of the slither of thought of women while jacking it, I am ashamed of myself. Ashamed of my temptations. Ashamed of being an incel.

Some people suggested in my last thread to use 2D Pοrn, but, God fuсking no- I don’t know why, but 2D girls in general and loli rаpe type ѕhit makes my dick retract inside of my body. Thanks for the suggestions, though- I really appreciate it.

Some close friends, who I have professed this to, tell me these violent temptations are normal but just to not act on them, because most men get them.

That I understand, but really, the only reason I’m as ashamed of them as I am is because I don’t want to be anything like my father- considering that I am the product of a rаpe baby. My mother is the only woman on earth that I respect, and I wouldn’t want even my thoughts to let her down.

I seriously need fuсking therapy.
 

Saint Escortcel

Major
I apologize for starting a new thread this quick after starting my first one, but it was really just a copy and paste of a draft I had in my Notes app for a few weeks now and I realized that if I want adequate responses I should rather talk about the now instead of the then.

If you haven’t read my last thread- which if you would like to, check it out on my profile- but long story short, the way I’m trying not to give into the temptation of just.. taking what I want forcefully from women, I would rather just look at gay Pοrn rather than straight Pοrn to not even give me the chances of getting my hopes up.

But anyway,

Over the past week or two- Corona has taken over my life and my soul- figuratively, of course.

It has led me to giving into the dreaded straight pornography which I had been preaching to myself to even think about looking at.

Well, not straight Pοrn itself, more just.. pictures of Madison Beer and Megan Fox.

No matter how horny and desperate I get, I will never give into Pornhub’s sex trafficking and rаpe conspiracies. Never.

I realized the consequences of jacking it to pictures of these women- which are my type, (not saying that I wouldn’t not take any woman that offers herself to me, but, girls who look remotely similar to them would be preferred) that I had only made my temptations stronger, and overall- worse.

I went to the store around a week ago to pick up some milk, cheese, and peanut butter. There, I saw this young girl, not young, I’m not a pedophile, but probably around 15-16. She looked almost exactly like my type, long brunette hair that just goes a little but past her chest, teal eyes and tan skin. I glanced at her multiple times- and she probably noticed after a while unless she isn’t aware of her surroundings.

I’m ashamed to say it- but I get the temptations again and they came bad.

I fuсking got them and I hate myself for thinking this way, having these almost rаpe-like fantasies in my head that make me want to off myself everytime they pop up.

I’ve been able to control it for months now with the whole gay-Pοrn diet, but I relapse on getting off to women once and THIS is how my mind treats me.

I literally fuсking hate myself.

I don’t know why I “relapsed,” but I did, and maybe it’s because I thought that if I jack to girls who are actually real, I know their name, their life, their persona, that I’ll know I’ll never have a chance with her and she’ll know I’ll never exist, maybe it’s fine because lookalikes of those girls rarely exist in real life.

But apparently I was wrong.

Thanks a lot, God.

Since that day, (and I know this is a little TMI, but,) I’ve been jacking it everyday- multiple times, way more than usual- and using the same concept of “I’ll never get them,” but with men- specifically that actor who played that cuck Stanley Barber from that Netflix show I Am Not Okay With This and the White Boy of The Month that played that fаg from Call Me By Your Name. They’ve been good escapism- it’s almost like a cleanse of women despite not having any sexual attraction to men whatsoever.

But part of me, in the very back of my mind, is always chanting- “yeah, those boys- but what if they were GIRLS? Imagine how hot they would be if they were the opposite sex?” And that’s... that’s what brings me to climax.

And yet, just because of the slither of thought of women while jacking it, I am ashamed of myself. Ashamed of my temptations. Ashamed of being an incel.

Some people suggested in my last thread to use 2D Pοrn, but, God fuсking no- I don’t know why, but 2D girls in general and loli rаpe type ѕhit makes my dick retract inside of my body. Thanks for the suggestions, though- I really appreciate it.

Some close friends, who I have professed this to, tell me these violent temptations are normal but just to not act on them, because most men get them.

That I understand, but really, the only reason I’m as ashamed of them as I am is because I don’t want to be anything like my father- considering that I am the product of a rаpe baby. My mother is the only woman on earth that I respect, and I wouldn’t want even my thoughts to let her down.

I seriously need fuсking therapy.
Fuck bro why dont u just adk them out worse they will say is no then get over it and try again at least its better than not trying
 

supercell

5'4 subhuman
Low-key all men like girls around 16 17 there lying if they don't admit it. Because there small and cleaner looking. I'm 17 but I like grown women thicc bitches. But fr I don't see how ur straight but get off to gay Pοrn.
 
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