Wristlet_2
"The only thing I could do was even the score."
Wristlet_2
"The only thing I could do was even the score."
Ofc looks are everything so, by definition, being ugly is worse, but I think being autistic is, at least, comparable.
I'm not autistic myself, but for a while I thought I could be due to my social skills being stunted, as well as effects from lifetime constant bullying being kinda similar to symptoms of autism. It made me very sad to think I could be autistic, and even an idiot from my first job straight up called me that, as well as a high school "friend". So, even though my "autism" went away by not being bullied anymore and learning to socialize (for a while I made a point to put myself out there a lot, which is when I learned good social skills and social awareness, but didnt get laid), I will forever feel for autistic cels.
My opinion on autism, from those experiences, is that being autistic is the ultimate shame and makes your life not worth living. I'm really sorry but it is what it is. In a world where social status is everything, an autist, aka someone who can't socialize properly, is just the lowest of the low a person can be. Not to mention "low functioning" ones who need to be taken care of like children. It's just torture.
That high school friend I was speaking of, is someone whom I'm still in contact with and even went to his wedding a few months ago, bc he's better now, but in high school times he was kinda shitty and condescending, and always felt like, deep down, he felt I deserved the bullying for being somehow inferior. He also didn't know I was bullied at home by my parents, besides the school bullying. And also didn't realize my low social skills were a consequence of the bullying, instead of something inherent to me that I deserved to be bullied for
So this guy, one day, sent me a link for The Big Bang Theory, told me I'd like it, and that "I was similar to Sheldon". I wasn't happy when I found that sheldon character was basically a retаrd who was also intended to be laughed at, and told him so. He said it's because sheldon is smart, yeah sure JFL. So that was the first time I was called an autist.
The second time was sadder. Basically, I took my first job, and was really struggling and really trying hard not to get fired, over my stunted social skills and overall lack of grasp of social expectations, including on a professional settings. But I was extra careful and it worked. Anyway, there was this fuсking guy, an incel in denial who is so ugly I'm sure this whole forum mogs him, but still thought he was successful bc he was betabuxing, and he's just so dumb and so bad at his job, that a few months in I already did a lot better than him, which didn't go well ofc. He was on a campaign to make me look bad to my boss, and since I didn't know how to respond to that (nowadays I would obvs), I just didn't respond at all, did as good of a job as I could, and hoped for the best. Eventually he left the company, according to my boss he left bc of me, but idk because I wasn't able to read social cues back then. Anyway, this asshole once straight up called me sheldon from tbbt too. I swear I hate that character at this point. I guess that's a good way to cope for him with how stupid he is, to pretend like I'm some sort of autistic genius instead of him just being retаrded.
Anyway, so yeah, during the time I had stunted social skills, I was compared to a literal retаrd from a comedy show twice, and gotten in countless cringe situations. I can only imagine the hell legit autistic cels go through. I think an autist could only get laid if he's gigachad, and even then I don't really know, bc other chads with social skills would mog him.
What do you guys think? Tbh I am interested in autistic cels experiences, as well as those who aren't autistic per se but were bullied and have had trouble socializing like me, and therefore have had (kinda) similar symptoms. As well as what you think of the condition, bc some people says it's a "superpower" (jfl) or that there's nothing wrong with it, but I think they're coping.
I'm not autistic myself, but for a while I thought I could be due to my social skills being stunted, as well as effects from lifetime constant bullying being kinda similar to symptoms of autism. It made me very sad to think I could be autistic, and even an idiot from my first job straight up called me that, as well as a high school "friend". So, even though my "autism" went away by not being bullied anymore and learning to socialize (for a while I made a point to put myself out there a lot, which is when I learned good social skills and social awareness, but didnt get laid), I will forever feel for autistic cels.
My opinion on autism, from those experiences, is that being autistic is the ultimate shame and makes your life not worth living. I'm really sorry but it is what it is. In a world where social status is everything, an autist, aka someone who can't socialize properly, is just the lowest of the low a person can be. Not to mention "low functioning" ones who need to be taken care of like children. It's just torture.
That high school friend I was speaking of, is someone whom I'm still in contact with and even went to his wedding a few months ago, bc he's better now, but in high school times he was kinda shitty and condescending, and always felt like, deep down, he felt I deserved the bullying for being somehow inferior. He also didn't know I was bullied at home by my parents, besides the school bullying. And also didn't realize my low social skills were a consequence of the bullying, instead of something inherent to me that I deserved to be bullied for
So this guy, one day, sent me a link for The Big Bang Theory, told me I'd like it, and that "I was similar to Sheldon". I wasn't happy when I found that sheldon character was basically a retаrd who was also intended to be laughed at, and told him so. He said it's because sheldon is smart, yeah sure JFL. So that was the first time I was called an autist.The second time was sadder. Basically, I took my first job, and was really struggling and really trying hard not to get fired, over my stunted social skills and overall lack of grasp of social expectations, including on a professional settings. But I was extra careful and it worked. Anyway, there was this fuсking guy, an incel in denial who is so ugly I'm sure this whole forum mogs him, but still thought he was successful bc he was betabuxing, and he's just so dumb and so bad at his job, that a few months in I already did a lot better than him, which didn't go well ofc. He was on a campaign to make me look bad to my boss, and since I didn't know how to respond to that (nowadays I would obvs), I just didn't respond at all, did as good of a job as I could, and hoped for the best. Eventually he left the company, according to my boss he left bc of me, but idk because I wasn't able to read social cues back then. Anyway, this asshole once straight up called me sheldon from tbbt too. I swear I hate that character at this point. I guess that's a good way to cope for him with how stupid he is, to pretend like I'm some sort of autistic genius instead of him just being retаrded.
Anyway, so yeah, during the time I had stunted social skills, I was compared to a literal retаrd from a comedy show twice, and gotten in countless cringe situations. I can only imagine the hell legit autistic cels go through. I think an autist could only get laid if he's gigachad, and even then I don't really know, bc other chads with social skills would mog him.
What do you guys think? Tbh I am interested in autistic cels experiences, as well as those who aren't autistic per se but were bullied and have had trouble socializing like me, and therefore have had (kinda) similar symptoms. As well as what you think of the condition, bc some people says it's a "superpower" (jfl) or that there's nothing wrong with it, but I think they're coping.
